Moon Shell
Pretend you are on retreat and the leader puts this moon
shell in your hand. The leader
then invites you: “Ponder this
shell and then prayerfully allow its shape and beauty to open up your heart.”
That’s what Anne Morrow Lindbergh does in “Gift from the
Sea,” her amazing 1955 collection of essays inspired by seashells.
“This is a snail shell, round, full and glossy as a horse
chestnut. Comfortable and compact,
it sits curled up like a cat in the hollow of my hand. Milky and opaque, it has the pinkish
bloom of the sky on a summer evening, ripening to rain. On its smooth symmetrical face is
penciled with precision a perfect spiral, winding inward to the pinpoint center
of the shell, the tiny dark core of the apex, the pupil of the eye. It stares at me, this mysterious single
eye – and I stare back.
“Now it is the moon, solitary in the sky, full and round,
replete with power. Now it is the
eye of a cat that brushes noiselessly through long grass at night. Now it is an island, set in ever-widening
circles of waves, alone, self contained, serene.”
By the end of her essay “Moon Shell” she has referenced
Quakers, Plotinus, Catherine of Siena (“The cell of self-knowledge is the stall
in which the pilgrim must be reborn.”) John Donne, William James, Mary and
Martha, and Virginia Woolf.
It’s a poignant essay by a woman longing for solitude and
stillness, a time and space of her own.
She wrote it during a precious few weeks on a Florida island away from
her husband and five kids. She names
the moon shell her “island shell” and takes it home with her to remind her of
this time apart.
I read this book long ago, and remembered her lovely
descriptions of shells. But rereading it this week I was struck by
Morrow Lindbergh’s sadness and longing. Even though she lived what seemed a privileged and
successful life, she felt trapped, like many women in the 1950’s, by the needs
and expectations of others. She
says the moon shell reminds her of what Jesus calls Mary’s “better choice”
against all the distractions of a Martha life.
It was restless women like Anne Morrow Lindbergh and Betty
Friedan who helped the second wave of feminism come crashing onto the shores of
America in the 60’s. Like Morrow
Lindbergh’s revelations from the sea, so white middle class women heard a call
to leave the stifling confines of the suburbs, seeking voice and choice.
I like that we call the different eras of the women’s
movement “waves.” A good image for what can happen when we listen to the sea
and its many gifts.
(We’ve got 18 great Blue Theologians here this week from
churches in Lakeport and North Hollywood, experiencing waves and moon shells,
solitude and stillness.
bluetheology.com)